The journey so far!

The life of a human being is a journey from moment to moment. It is the moments which make the sum of the whole life complete. The moments are filled with our actions actions right or wrong. What is right? What is wrong? Are questions which bother human beings all over the world. This is not an attempt or answer the dilemma of right or wrong for the masses. Far from it, I just wish to understand the journey of my life from the moment I left class 10 th. It was when I had left all behind and truly embarked on this adventurous life.

Joined commerce. Spend 6 long years sitting at home doing nothing & mostly deceiving my self. Left that phase behind and also deceived myself at a new institution.

When I was satisfied that I had wasted enough time I started work. During this work I have constantly been frustrated with what I have achieved in my working life.

I worked my ass off in PLACE 1.
I did not really understand what I was required to do in PLACE 2.
I worked my ass off with PLACE 3.
I worked my ass off with PLACE 4 but also made a few mistakes in doing a job which I should not have been doing to begin with. I told them that we should not be the ones to do this job but still were forced to do it. The skills that we acquired were so vast that we ourselves were stunned with what we had achieved. With no guidance being available to us.

This frustration has meant that I have hoped from job to job. The CV looks so ugly today that I don't know how to rectify it today. The only way it can be resolved today is that I spend a long time in one organisation.

The problem with this line of thinking is that I must find the right organisation to work for. A failure to do so will result in continuous job hoping and further deterioration in the quality of my work profile.

What am I really today, an underwriter or a claims professional. I have been both in my working life and I am both today as well.

I have a job today, where I am currently acting a business developer with a TPA the trouble with a this job is that I have been at this pay point for the past 2 ½ years. In addition to that I am in my third Job doing this thing only. Just how frustrating is that can only be guessed.

Looking back would I have left PLACE 4 if I had known what was about to happen I may not have. I still question why I left t hat company. Was it a simple desire to return to NCR or was it because of my inability to adjust to that work environment or was it because of the company I had fallen into.

I think it was because of all the above reasons and then some. I have been described by some one as an individual as having a poor attitude. Is it actually the truth? I see myself as a workaholic some one who doesn't stop from finding the solution when every one else has given up from fatigue and an inability to find the answer. I still carry on, then why have I have been described as an individual with a poor attitude? Is it because of an inability to see another's point of view.

That is something that bothers me.