Understanding

I think I am beginning to find and answer to the riddle that had been haunting me for some time.

It is the absence to the direct support structure that I had in form of friends and family. Am seeking to recreate it in Jaipur but am facing trouble creating it as no one person is staying at this place long enough for me be a friend. Which in turn creates a sense of isolation and a need to indulge in a time wasting relationship. Some thing that I have never bothered with in the past. But being alone from my family I have started to more concerned with the affairs of my colleges.

Not sure if this is a good thing.